Emptiness by Ailenemae Ramos
10 October 2020
Isang tula sa pagdiriwang ng World Mental Health Day

I find my self in an empty room,
Being locked and nowhere else to go.
When I looked around, and all I can see,
Is an incredible and empty space.

I realized, did anyone notice I am here?
Did anyone concern to think about me?
It’s very hard dealing with the hurt,
I feel like no one’s there during all my sorrow.

I have nothing left to lose, and nothing left to gain,
I fight through those days, with no one at my side.
All my days are terrible, dark, stormy, cold and grey,
Emptiness keeps growing so quickly as I slowly fade away.

If I broke down and lost all my control,
Would you come and save me from this empty room?
I have no courage left to go out in this sphere,
No helping hand to pull me to free my self out.

I am sad,
I am lonely,
I am irrational,
I am complicated.

For a while, I try so hard to fight away my doubts,
So far away, I assumed they are already gone.
But I think nothing lasts forever,

The pains, darkness, tears, always find their way,
To come and bring me to the emptiness side of myself,
That I am trying to fight to get over and free my self out.

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