Season’s of the Soul’s Struggle
By Suci Resmiyati
In the midst of the crowd, I walk full of hope.
I dedicate my soul and energy
This season should be a field of goodness
But often, sacrifices are overlooked in the dark.
With all my heart, I try to always be there.
Holding hands full of hope
But behind the smile, there is a hidden wound
This sincerity is often looked down upon
The rainy season comes bringing deep sadness
Every teardrop is a reflection of sacrifice
Paid with slander and hurtful words
As if all efforts are just flying dust
In every step I take, there is a hidden story
Sincere sacrifices are often misunderstood
Badged by those who do not understand the struggle
Like a dark shadow covering the light
The summer burns with unspeakable fatigue
Every sweat is a symbol of hope
But behind all that, there is a sense of emptiness and disappointment
When my good intentions are turned into reproach
When autumn comes with the falling leaves
I reflect on everything I have been through
Every slander is a wound that scratches the soul
Making me wonder: “What does it all mean?”
My mind is shaken in this injustice
Support feels far away like the shadows of the night
With every heavy step, I seek justice
But often only find a dead end
Now I stand in the middle of a season full of wounds
With all the sacrifices that are not appreciated
These seasons are silent witnesses to the struggle of the soul
Taking me to a place where hope feels faint
But in this darkness, I try to survive
Looking for light at the end of the long tunnel
Even though slander and ridicule chase my steps
I will continue to walk for a dream that will not be extinguished
This poem is exploring the emotional journey of an individual navigating through various life challenges, symbolized by the changing seasons. The poem begins with a sense of “hope” amidst a crowd, yet reveals the “sacrifices” made that often go unnoticed. As the seasons shift, the speaker experiences “sadness” during the rainy season, reflecting on the pain caused by misunderstandings and harsh words. The “summer” brings fatigue and disappointment, highlighting the emptiness felt when good intentions are met with reproach. In autumn, the she reflects on past struggles and injustices, questioning the meaning of their sacrifices. Ultimately, despite feeling overwhelmed by wounds and unappreciated efforts, there is a persistent search for “light and hope”, indicating resilience in the face of adversity. The poem poignantly illustrates the internal battles and emotional scars that accompany life's cyclical nature.
